6/13/13

I used to be so proud of my maturity.  When anyone mentioned that I seemed older than I was, or that I had grown up fast, I was flattered.  There was nothing I liked more at 16 than to be mistaken for a 20-year-old.  

And it's true, I did grow up fast.  Emotionally, anyway. I didn't have much of a choice in the matter. 

The thing is, I think I'm trying to make up for that now.  It's pretty bad timing.

I had Thrice in my head this morning.  Sometimes that happens.  I wake up with a song in my head and have no idea where it came from.

I like to think that my dreams invite all of my favorite musicians to come play for me in my sleep.  And I wake up with only a sleepy recollection.

Getting out of bed this week has been nearly impossible.  I feel this unshakable urge to hide.

But that isn't an option because I'm a grown up.  Not sure exactly when that happened, but how do I make it stop? 

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  1. People always tell me I seem way older. When I was 12/13 they thought I was 16. Now, they think I'm 15-17. So either I'm normal now, or am unmaturing..

    I often often wake up with a song in my head that I haven't heard in ages. I kinda love it. I love the idea of all my favorite musicians playing for me in my sleep haha!

    I love how you can make all these discombobulated randomness connect and sound right. xx

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    1. Unmaturing haha. Yes, that is my feeling in a nutshell!

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  2. I was talking about the notion of growing up a few days ago with a friend. I kind of hate the fact that I'm considered a "working adult." That just sounds gross. I feel like a child still and I want to be a child. But there are perks that come with being a big kid, too.

    Hope all is well with you these days :)

    P.s. I love that photo. I lovelovelove when people let trees grow in grass instead of covering them with cement.

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    1. It's true, being an adult has its perks. Some days I just don't feel like the perks are balancing out the work! But usually they do.

      Cement is the worst. Ruins beautiful things!

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  3. Amen to this entire post.

    I'm getting to the point where I will be done with school in a few months and ready to start a real people job. Part of me is glad that I won't have to work weird night shifts at retail jobs, but a bigger part of me is freaked out about waking up so early every day and finally being the adult I've been obsessive about people thinking I am.

    Life is hard. But this blog is lovely.

    Em
    emmajphelps.blogspot.com

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    1. Exactly, it's really hard not to get intimidated and overwhelmed! Thank you very much :)

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  4. I always liked seeming like I was older until I realized that as I got older it would only get worse. "You're what, 35?" um...sheeeet. Looking younger is definitely better. I actually used to think that I was really mature and now I am starting to think that I am super immature and need to grow up. I guess I like to do things backwards? I dunno. Also, I often find that wearing piggy tails always helps me feel less grown up. Or sometimes I wear socks with lace on the top and clip my hair with metal clippys.

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    1. hahaha pig tails and clippys. Great ideas, Heather. Cheers to growing up backwards. Benjamin Button style.

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  5. I totally get this. Sometimes i just want to hide in bed all day, but i feel like people are constantly staring and waiting/expecting me to get up. it is definitely a strange funk. and Thrice is one of my all time favorite bands. just sayin'

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    1. You obviously have extremely good taste. Dear Hunter, Thrice. I think I love you.

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  6. I've always seemed 12. It's a curse.

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    1. Well I enjoy it! Especially in Sacrament meetings :) haha

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  7. How do I make it stop? LOL I'm with you there. And I know what you mean about waking up with a random song in your head. It's like.....huh?

    p.s. The Grey's Anatomy "Currently Reading" sidebar....hilarious.

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    1. baha, thanks. Just wanted to be honest!

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