9/18/15

dream.

To feel anything deranges you. To be seen feeling anything strips you naked. | Anne Carson


I dream of rooms made of windows and digging in the earth. Of wide open spaces where the sun says its final farewells each day through grand old trees. Standing up to wipe the human from my brow, hands on hips, breathe it in - the everything of this moment, an elusive yet constant companion never to be encapsulated. Little feet run around me. Sturdy shelves stacked with books and mementos from times before now. I dream of sunlight and of shadow and of pulling the hair up out of my face. I dream of familiar voices calling from the other room, of relishing that as the blessing it is. Of kisses from the same lips of the same man in the same bed every night until we die. Singing lullabies to his blue eyes in a new creature all our own. Writing and building and filling my mind.

There are times I convince myself it's silly, all of this dreaming. But, after all, dreams turn into things. What else could?

12 comments:

  1. This was my favorite post from you so far.

    The Golden Days
    http://herestothegoldendays.blogspot.com

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  2. Yes yes yes. Also, I want to go into the mountains with you, and take all the pictures!

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  3. Meeeeeeeg. This whole thing was beautiful, but this part: "Of kisses from the same lips of the same man in the same bed every night until we die. Singing lullabies to his blue eyes in a new creature all our own. Writing and building and filling my mind." It's beautiful and perfect and everything.

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  4. "Standing up to wipe the human from my brow"

    This is one of those lines that I read and feel like I can never write again because nothing will ever be said more perfectly or more profoundly. Slow claps forever for you. And also. At some point, I would love for you to take some pics of me so I can be half as beautiful as all of your photos.

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    1. I felt sort of weird about that line. But honestly, I thought someone like you at least would get it, so I went with it. So, thanks for validating that! And I'd love to take your pictures!

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  5. This post feels like a big breath of fresh air, so happy I stumbled onto your blog today.

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    1. Thank you so much! Thanks for reading and commenting.

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    2. Your photos are amazing too

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  6. You're my favorite. Ugh. The way you are able to formulate words that resonate with me, I feel like I'm always able to come away from your blog with a better understanding of myself and a feeling of it's okay to be the way I am. This dream is lovely and is basically my life aspirations.

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