If you asked me now what general feeling I had for myself, I would answer you with
Because each morning I wake up at the last precious minute and arrive at work at the last possible second and look half-asleep for more than half the day. But at the very least, regularly bathed. Because I do just as much work as is necessary and not a single thing more. Because, sure, I may have God-given talents the way all of us do, but they mostly wait around to be paid attention to. Because sometimes when I get dressed for the day I realize that the shirt I just put on is a shirt I've been putting on since I was 16 and now I'm 22 and don't talk to hardly any of the same people and don't feel very much like the same person at all.
Because I'm not missing any marks or spacing any deadlines. Because I'm fulfilling expectations. But I'm certainly not exceeding them.