9/16/13

kind of a miracle.

The truth is, I only feel like my real and honest self about two and a half out of seven days a week.  I'm too embarrassed to even attempt simple math in front of anyone else.  Sometimes I find myself paralyzed with this fear that my life will never consist of anything other than working full-time, even though I know that's silly.  At least, I hope it is. 
And I would have to say that, yes, I am in love.  Not the ABC prime-time kind of love.  Where I'm, you know, still waiting to see if he'll ever leave his wife for me.  Or sitting by a hospital bed surrounded by medical machinery, tears cascading down my face with mascara that never runs, holding one of his immobile hands in both of mine, just begging him to wake up from a coma.

No.  It's the boring, in-for-the-long-haul, fully-dedicated-to-one-another's-happiness kind of love.  Where we're already married.  Where we go to bed at 9pm if we want to.  Where we talk about water bills sometimes. The kind where I melt whenever he mows the lawn or loosens his tie or tells me that he cleaned out the kitty litter so I don't have to.  Where he fully supports the fact that I'll most likely never have hair past my shoulders.  Where he says he is completely fine spending our Saturday afternoon lunch date listening to me go into a full synopsis of my most current read.

I guess it doesn't make for the best writing.  Not the kind that affairs and comas and love triangles do.  I guess that's why the majority of stories are told prior to the happily ever after, not afterward.

But I am in love.  And isn't that kind of a miracle, in and of itself?

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  1. Definitely. I feel so lucky to be in love. It's crazy because it came to me when I wasn't searching for it, not in the slightest. But I often wonder where I'd be had it not found me when it did. Lost somewhere, I suppose. I love you two.

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    1. Absolutely! It was all so random and out of the clear blue for you and Ty. But you're so perfectly suited and do incredible things together. And will continue to, I'm sure. I love you guys too.

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  2. How cute are you! Love how in love and happy you are, sweet girl!

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    1. Oh you stop it! haha yes i think we both ended up in pretty good places.

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  3. Oh my gosh. Just perfect. This simple-honest-easy kind of love surpasses any dramatic, over-the-top love affair.... In my book. Miraculous indeed, my friend.

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    1. It really does trump all. So underrated! Thank you.

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  4. I think this is the most beautiful love of all. This was a perfect piece of writing. Made me cry sweet tears, so much better than the glass tears I cry for the dramatic stories. I love this kind of love. I want THIS kind of love. Not the messy Grey's Anatomy love, as gorgeous as it is. This is an inspiration.

    Em
    Tightrope to the Sun

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    1. Glad you caught on to the fact that this was, of course, Grey's inspired. But isn't everything? Isn't LIFE? haha you keep being beautiful and brilliant.

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  5. That's just so wonderful that it's almost harder to believe than all the fiction drama.
    & the most wonderful thing is that it's real.
    you are so lucky!

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    1. That's so true. Before I was married I used to search desperately for examples of the kind of love I wanted. Cause it really does almost seem impossible. But just almost.

      Thank you, I feel lucky everyday.

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  6. I love this! I'm in that kind of love too! Screw the tv love, this one is better.

    Bwaterloo.wordpress.com

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    1. haha exactly. I mean TV love can stay on TV because, wow, entertainment. But yes. I much prefer reality, where we can just grow old reading books in rocking chairs on the front porch. Right? Right.

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  7. I've been following your blog for sometime now and I can't keep quiet any longer. This is wonderful. Just plain wonderful. Why did love have to be taken captive by sensation and drama when really it's the best as a calm and consistent thing?

    Love your blog. Keep on writing and being yourself.

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    1. Have you really? I'm so sorry, I usually stop by follower's blogs too!

      Media has a way of gorgeously misrepresenting things. Especially relationships, in my opinion. Thank you so much for commenting :)

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  8. Speaking to my SOUL, here, Meg! Really. Every day, I crave this. And you're not lucky to have this, you deserve it. Not because I know you so well, or I know exactly what you need, but because if you've gone through heartache on any level, you deserve boring love. It's the highest and most wonderful form there is, I'm sure of it. And I'll probably be even more sure of it when I find it. I love everything about every word you've written.

    Also, I want to put in a plug for how I think we should get lunch sometime because I sort of believe that we're relatively, sort of a similar kind of person. Unless you hate that idea. Then, we don't have to.

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    1. No, I love that idea quite a lot actually! I mean, I'm pretty bad at people. So you'll have to be prepared for an obligatory amount of awkwardness from me. But we really should do lunch! That would be fantastic.

      Thank you so much. And I completely agree. It is the best kind of love. The tangible kind. No smoke and mirrors.

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  9. Do you know that ever since I was eight and fell in love with reading that I wondered why people didn't write books without the twisty-turny plot, the mystery, or the battle that needed to be won. I cried on many occasions to my mom asking why Gertrude Chandler Warner didn't write a book about the Boxcar Children without a mystery in it (I was very dramatic). I loved the mysteries, but I wanted to know what they were like in everyday life. And now, romance novels bore me because they end so suddenly. I want to know about the every day life.

    I'm rambling now, but yeah, I really like this. I like the boring every day life. It's good.

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    1. Natalia! I love you! haha because I feel the EXACT same way! I got so sick of stories with all of the drama and stress. I just wanted to read about my characters when they were happy. Why can't we know more about that?

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  10. this is seriously just perfect Meg. i think people get so caught up in this artificial love they see all around them. nothing is about being committed to a person for forever and always. what is wrong with that? it really is the most beautiful kind of love. the kind of love where you both look out for each other, and get to love each other forever. it is so beautiful.

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    1. It is kind of disturbing. I feel like the world is so far from the committed relationship mindset these days. Scares me. But thank you Shelby :)

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  11. Hi, this might be weird. But. I just read basically all of your blog posts. By basically all I mean 6 pages back which is a lot for this girl. I've never read a blog that is written by someone I genuinely relate to. I just wanted to tell you I like you and I like your writing. And I like autumn early and boring love and being loved. Thank you for writing what I feel so much more eloquently then I could ever hope to.

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    1. Jane, thanks so much! I'm really flattered haha because six pages IS a lot! Especially when it comes to my ramblings. They just get more embarrassing as you go on so probably stop now!

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    2. Yeah, I guess it's a lot. I kinda get focused on one thing then tend to do it all for a brief period of time. I had't even realized it was 6 pages til uhm I did realize?

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  12. Definitely a miracle all of its own, I know the feeling well :) x

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    1. I'm sure you do! I think you and your man have been together longer than Drew and I.

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  13. Your life sounds great to me! I can relate for sure. And I can barely do simple Math either ;)

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    1. Oh, yes, I think we definitely relate :)

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  14. Awwwww. I'm smiling so much. This is so lovely and true. Simple love is the best. <3

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  15. great post!

    http://differentcands.blogspot.kr/

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  16. I really love your blog. This post is beautiful, and 'boring love' isn't actually boring - it's real and true. And don't worry girl i think most of us steer clear of maths whenever we can avoid it :S

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  17. This is beautiful. THAT is the kind of love I want. Thank you for sharing with us, Meg.

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